IN 50 DAYS I'LL BE BACKPACKIN INDIA.
i became my thoughts. my actions and thoughts were controlled by feeling alone. everything was feelings. i was feeling eveything, things that were thoughts only. i felt every stimuli around me with sensitivity. i couldn't separate 'I' from my feelings and thoughts. i thought i felt optimistic but what about how i was? was i optimistic or just feeling optimistic? i'm not even sure if there's a difference but i was sleeping all the time. I had lost all reasoning. i lost the present moment completely. not being present in the only moment, is alone. not in this moment, that you are in, that everyone is living in, there is no oneness, not a sense of it.